That’s quite a few, and it will take me forever to sort through them.

Reckon it makes up for neglecting my photography during exams?

I hate it when horoscopes seem accurate, because they’re bull shit. Everybody knows they’re bull shit, so how come this

PISCES
The Pisces zodiac sign is always looking for the other in their life time. The challenge might be how to learn how to be alone or you might face issues of coherency and addiction.

feels so true?

Tonight was such a strange night.

There were strobe lights that made me feel sick and dizzy.
Hyperventilation and near passing out that made me feel amazing.
A hug, a confession.
“why did we fall out? I love you”
I don’t love you at all.

Questions I couldn’t answer. Dares I’m not daring enough to complete.
A swig of bourbon that made me want more.
Smiles. Photos. Looks. Eyes where they shouldn’t have been.
Ups, downs, impossible things and people.

As I left there was a boy nearly in tears, punching a wall.
“she doesn’t care, she doesn’t care”
She should.

Photos make everything look perfect and fucked up. Faces are bleached and pinched, but smiles seem ever present. Why do they never catch more?

I suppose it wouldn’t be acceptable to photograph the boy who was off his face before the night had even begun. Or the thoughts that shifted through everyone’s minds. The people who shifted from group to group and persona to persona.

I don’t think I like people. But I sort of also love them. They’re beautiful and they’re terrible. We’re all hypocrittes and the ones who realise this are doomed to live out their days in misery.

I can’t fucking stand myself. I shudder when I look at my own skin. I feel its imperfections, they flow through my veins. My veins themselves are filled with a sort of toxin that makes happiness impossible and makes me fuck with the people around me. It makes me feel ill, but I know it. I know that in three days I might feel wonderful again. But this is emotionally exhausted. I’m so exhausted. I want to sleep but only if I get to forever. I want to stay awake but only if something interesting happens.

Fuck it all, nothing matters anyway.

I’m so tired. But why would I want to sleep when that just means waking up tomorrow?
Then again, there’s no real reason to stay awake. This is stupid.

Fucking typical….